Servant of the Most Compassionate
I don’t always remember my dreams, however, there is one dream I will never forget.
I was in a house where people were gathered. I wasn’t sure if it was mine. Either way, there were people there. I don’t know who they were, but they had faces. That always freaks me out.
All of a sudden, there was a knock on the door. It was a screen door located on the side of the house. I heard the knock and began going towards it. I opened the door with my left hand as to let the gentleman in. He stood there, young-looking in age. I can remember his features. He had short hair and a long beard. His skin was neither light nor dark, but olive. He had very pleasant features. It wasn’t a scary looking dude basically. He was smiling.
He wouldn’t come in. I asked him as I stood there with my left hand on the screen door, “What’s your name?” He said, “Abdul-Rahman”, which means “Servant of the Most Compassionate”.
I tried to repeat his name and I couldn’t do it. I kept making mistakes. I knew what his name was and I knew how to say it, but simply couldn’t formulate the name when I tried to say it out loud.
I asked again, “What’s your name?” He again said, “Abdul-Rahman”. Again, I tried to repeat his name out loud and couldn’t do it. His smile seemed to have been frozen in time. Not once during our interaction did he let go of that smile. It was comforting.
I asked him, “Will you not come in?” He didn’t say anything. He simply stood there smiling and walked away.
Now, I was completely perplexed. Yes, I found out that even in my dreams I am capable of getting confused.
It was then that I woke up. I could do nothing but think about the dream I had, all day. I was in a depressing state spiritually speaking during this time. I was down on myself for giving into my weaknesses consistently and always thought of myself as not worthy of any true guidance. I couldn’t forgive myself, so why would God, right?
It wasn’t until later that night that it hit me. This was a good dream. What I took away from it all was this. Although we make mistakes, and consistently so, we have to remember that God is the Most Compassionate and the source of all Mercy. All we have to do is repent and trust in Him.
“Despair not of the Mercy of Allah, verily Allah forgives all sins. Truly, He is Oft-Forgiving, Most Merciful.” Holy Qur’an [Surah 39:Verse 53]