Keep on Knocking

The perpetual human state of ups and downs of life for us as Muslims may lean on this one thing. It’s something many of us sometimes struggle to reflect upon.

It’s sometimes embedded in a subconscious we delve on only when we’re reminded, or we suddenly face loss, feel spiritual emptiness, or when we face emotional or physical pain.

Maybe most of the time we don’t even realize the need.

It’s that connection with the Divine.

That yearning for fulfillment in His company. This builds that blessing of purpose. It’s the pillar and foundation our entire faith is based on. It’s what was taught to us time and time again in the life our beloved Prophet ﷺ.

For us, sometimes when we hear about it, it may seem so abstract that it’s out of reach. We may struggle to find the application, sometimes lost in translation, other times just … lost.

The frustration of finding someone to ask and get answers. To vent our personal spiritual frustrations. To learn from with no barriers, or to feel you’re not alone because that person you’re asking went through what we went through. To trust someone.

The frustration may lead many of us to turn away. To feel that to feel this yearning or that need is just not practical, too complex.

We lose the picture. Swerve the wrong way. Think we can navigate on our own … and maybe find temporal fulfillment in what we believe makes us feel good.

Indulgence to no end.

Until we realize … there’s emptiness.

Emptiness that nothing can fill except His company. Nothing can bring fulfillment except being in need of Him, and no solace or comfort except in His remembrance.

We struggle to find out just how to find it, yet not realize that it’s not about learning about the path that so many get lost in. The answer is lost in the simplicity. It’s not about learning what’s the path … the path is learning more about Him.

Often times we ask for genuineness in our relationships, but how often have we sought to be genuine with Him? Or we sought to learn more about who He is, who we’re dealing with, His names, His attributes, or His message to us.

It’s in that, that we find our own fulfillment in life in a very direct and intrinsic way that can only be felt if we take the right steps and seek the path.

“God undertakes to accept the repentance of those who do evil out of ignorance and soon afterwards repent: these are the ones that God will forgive, He is all knowing, all wise” {Qur’an 4:17}

The companions of the Prophet ﷺ said that the ignorant that God forgives is in this verse … anyone who sins, because anyone that sins is ignorant of truly knowing God. If they only knew who they were dealing with, they wouldn’t sin, regardless of whether it was intentional or not.

It’s our lack of reaching out, seeking to learn, understanding more about Him. The emptiness of indulgence and the lack of solace and fulfillment only comes from the distance we create from thinking we don’t … need God.

This is why one of His names is alRaqib – The Near, never absent. He’s so close to us that no matter how hard we try to run away from Him, every atom of ours belongs to him.

He is alMubin – the Most Apparent. He is so apparent that we don’t need to search hard, go on a long journey or quest, or discovery, or dig deep or far to find Him.

That lack of understanding of the need for Him, of His company, is the central reason of losing awareness. This loss is the root of spiritual emptiness. This is what the Prophet ﷺ wanted us to deal with by making us realize that it’s about reaching out, not being paralyzed by the process.

“If you were to commit sin until your sins reach the heaven, then you were to repent, your repentance would be accepted.”

And one of the deepest sayings of the Prophet ﷺ I had ever heard –

“There is no believing slave [of God] except that he has a sin that he continually commits, from time to time, or a sin that he constantly does – it never leaves him until he leaves this world. The believer is created to be tried and tested, he repents over the sin, he continuously forgets & relapses – when he is reminded, he remembers.”

And he ﷺ said,

“By the One who holds my soul in His hand, were you not to commit sins, God would replace you with people who would commit sins and then seek forgiveness from Him and He would forgive them.”

A scholar was asked how to find fulfillment, he said, “keep knocking on the door of God, and if you find it closed, keep knocking, keep knocking.”

Another scholar told him in response, “rather you should reflect, when was it closed to begin with?”

Sometimes our struggle is in how we can build the courage to knock that makes us lose the ability or want to do it. If we only took that step, we’d find out that the door was actually always open … to a sanctuary of eternal fulfillment, happiness, and solace in the company of the Divine.

God says:

“When a slave of Mine draws near to Me a hand span, I draw near to him an arm length … And if he comes to Me walking, I go to him running.”

We don’t need to knock on the door of God to find acceptance, it’s always open. We need to knock our own inability, fears, sins, excuses, and lack of knowledge to come to this realization.

Keep on knocking at those demons. Keep on knocking at the attachments that have distanced us from Him that gave us a false sense, and we hold on to. Keep on knocking because it’s with breaking those chains that will allow us to reach His door. It’s always open. If we enter it with open, sincere, yearning hearts, we’ll all know what we’ve been missing.

By: HasibN

3 thoughts on “Keep on Knocking”

  1. Reblogged this on Out of Cave and commented:
    “Wahai pejalan.. biarpun telah seratus kali engkau ingkar janji, ayolah datang, dan datang lagi.”
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  2. This is amazing. And I loved the hadith you referred to as one of the deepest sayings of the Prophet ﷺ you had ever heard – do you have a reference for it? JazakAllahu khayr for this post.


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